This morning I am getting some quiet time by myself. The kids are at VBS. Today is the last day but I have had a WHOLE week of it! I love that it is raining and the theme at VBS is water games! What a blessing today has been already!!
Yesterday, my day started at 4 a.m. with waking up in pain. I even had to wake my husband up because I thought I was going to pass out. Let me just say, that was the worst pain I had been in EVER! However, I did fall back to sleep just as the alarm was going off to start the day. So, the kids and their friends got up, dressed, and went to VBS while I came home and rested for the next 3 hours. The rest of the day went pretty smoothly. Kids & friends went to the pool, dropped off at home, and the last day for watching a sweet little baby I've had for six weeks.
Then last night was the awards ceremony for my son's ball league. At this ceremony, I gave the kids some news. After 4 years of watching most of the kids grow up, Rick & I were no longer going to be managing ball. Instead, we are going to really be focusing on our family and what God has in store for us. Thankfully, we do have a new direction and are starting on our journey. This Kuebler household will be starting on the path to adoption.
After having heavily prayed and debated over what we were supposed to do, Rick (who very much leads our home) has decided this is what God is calling us to at this time. We will go until there is a road block and we can go no further. I must say after wishing for adoption for 7 years, I still can't believe this is where we are going. I must give all glory to God.
God truly has changed our entire household. Rick has truly taken that step of faith. Once that was done, our lives and the lives of our children have dramatically been altered. Allowing God to take over my life has been the biggest challenge so far. I am having to deal with many insecurities regarding myself. Learning to become a woman of God is easier than I thought though. My past has always defined me because I LET it. I yell out of anger, I think horrible thoughts of destruction out of sadness, and I sink into myself because I'm a worldly person. I have my days where I think, I shouldn't have it this good. That is not what God desires for me though. HE desires that I have a good life. He just requires that I give it all to HIM. Once I do this, He will take care of me. Yes I will still have trials. That is how my attention must be gotten sometimes. How I deal with them, well, isn't that the real question. Give it all to Him. Ask God if there is a lesson or a blessing to be taken away from that particular experience.
As you or your friends go through the day (Friday the 13th), ask God to begin taking over your life. Give God 1 hour of your day to reflect, engage, or disengage from your perspective to HIS.
Friday, July 13, 2012
Monday, July 2, 2012
Another journey???
Wow, I can't believe it's been so long since I have wrote anything. SO much has happened. The Lord has really been working in my family's life. Over the last month, I have seen my husband and I grow closer together. My children has become closer too.
We have had Zech's ballgames all month. In his regular season games, the team was 3rd and in the post-season tournament, the team came in...3rd! It has been amazing to watch all these little boys grow so much over the season. I loved every minute of watching them, even the few losses they had!
Amber was also busy this last month. She and my nieces had their dance recital. Amber enjoyed it so much, she has asked us to take more classes next year. Rick and I have seen her change so much, I would love to keep seeing this maturity happening.
I, myself, am starting on a new journey. Last month, I decided I was going to be selling Pampered Chef. So far, I have held 3 shows. I would like to hold 3-4 shows per month but having 6 would be even better! I've also been reading a great book and learning more about myself.
Rick has also grown so much this year. I know usually about this time of year is when he gets frustrated and needs a break from work. This year is no different. However, he keeps saying he likes to go to work so he can provide for us. He also makes sure that each one of us in this family knows and feels his love for us. I really couldn't imagine our lives without him.
With that being said, we are all starting on a new journey together. After years of requesting and praying, we are going to start the process of adoption. We are not saying yes and we are not saying no. Rick & I will begin taking PS-MAPP classes. We are doing this as an informational class. We will constantly pray as we go through these classes. Whatever God does or doesn't have in-store for us, we will be listening. I ask that anyone that reads this be in constant prayer for also.
Our lives will change in a major way regardless of how this ends up. Our children's lives will change also. No matter which way this is sliced, God is really shaking us up. I can't wait to finish this "New life in a cemetery." My God is truly a God of compassion, mercy, and forgiveness. What an awesome God we serve!
We have had Zech's ballgames all month. In his regular season games, the team was 3rd and in the post-season tournament, the team came in...3rd! It has been amazing to watch all these little boys grow so much over the season. I loved every minute of watching them, even the few losses they had!
Amber was also busy this last month. She and my nieces had their dance recital. Amber enjoyed it so much, she has asked us to take more classes next year. Rick and I have seen her change so much, I would love to keep seeing this maturity happening.
I, myself, am starting on a new journey. Last month, I decided I was going to be selling Pampered Chef. So far, I have held 3 shows. I would like to hold 3-4 shows per month but having 6 would be even better! I've also been reading a great book and learning more about myself.
Rick has also grown so much this year. I know usually about this time of year is when he gets frustrated and needs a break from work. This year is no different. However, he keeps saying he likes to go to work so he can provide for us. He also makes sure that each one of us in this family knows and feels his love for us. I really couldn't imagine our lives without him.
With that being said, we are all starting on a new journey together. After years of requesting and praying, we are going to start the process of adoption. We are not saying yes and we are not saying no. Rick & I will begin taking PS-MAPP classes. We are doing this as an informational class. We will constantly pray as we go through these classes. Whatever God does or doesn't have in-store for us, we will be listening. I ask that anyone that reads this be in constant prayer for also.
Our lives will change in a major way regardless of how this ends up. Our children's lives will change also. No matter which way this is sliced, God is really shaking us up. I can't wait to finish this "New life in a cemetery." My God is truly a God of compassion, mercy, and forgiveness. What an awesome God we serve!
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