Peaceable Mother's Day

I'm struggling knowing how to start this post. Not a lot has happened this last month or so. We have started ball season for my son. My daughter was playing volleyball but due to injuring her hand, it was cut short. However, I know that will be starting again soon.

We are still on the road to adoption but are taking a scenic route. After the adoption of a girl fell through, we had to reevaluate what we were to be doing. As much as my husband and I said "No" to foster care, we each felt more and more that it may be the way to go. So we have taken classes and are almost done with those.

About a month ago, my grandmother was in the hospital. She is OK now but it brought about another change. For about 3 years, I had not talked to anyone on my side of the family. Due to my past and my anger I just felt it was better not to. However, God had yet another plan for me. While my grandmother was in the hospital I spent some time with my mother. She was at the hospital and by herself while my grandmother slept. I spent a few hours at a time with my mother and just talked. We didn't talk about much but kept it on a superficial level. Shortly after, I called her and we worked some things out.

Then God gave me yet another surprise. A few weeks after opening up discussion with my mother, I talked to 1 of my brothers. This would be the youngest and we had a great time getting caught up by phone for 1 1/2 hours. I found out a lot about some stuff he was going through and found he gave me some encouragement too.

James 3:17,18 says, "Wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy. Now the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace."

I guess God is teaching me yet another lesson. This will be the first Mother's Day in 3 years where I haven't actually felt a little guilty because I have not talked to my mother. While I will not actually be seeing her, I did call and tell her Happy Mother's Day! I have another new peace that I wasn't sure would ever come. I believe my children will get to see their mom one day where she doesn't have so much anger, bitterness, or emptiness in her. Tomorrow I will get to have a day where I will be at peace with what God has given me. I will consult the wisdom from above so that I may have the pureness, peace, and mercy without hypocrisy or partiality.

Happy Mother's Day to my mother, mother-in-law, family and friends!! May each of us have the fruit of righteousness sown in peace within our hearts.